Story of a Doubtful Man

How do you balance out life?
A portion where you have dreams to strive
Another where you ought to socialize
Another when you realize the world is full of lies
Another when you thought you’re called by destiny
When it is only your responsibility

Try screaming your distress out loud as though the world’s at fault
Wolves as friends accompany you in your vault
All saying you’re not the only miserable one
What if it is you whom they do not want?
Come back from somewhere, the world still full of lies
Everyone’s still pretending even as time flies

How many do you see friends who care
When abandoning you is all they dare?
So easy to befriend a jester
Who could create a thousand laughter
So tough to find true peers
Who are willing to share your tears

Distress when you’re busy
Ill when you’re weary

Every morning you wake up and do about your daily stuff
You come to school or office, only to realize you’ve been bluffed
People want you to be
Who they want you to be
Towards your job you try to be sincere
Yet their words pull the strings on you like a puppeteer

Even worst, when you try building a relationship
With a friend whom you wish for a mutual friendship
Yet it is unclear towards you what she feels
No doctors could prescribe for you suitable pills
You wish the bond between you and she will get closer, tighter and nearer to each other
In the end, you’re getting nowhere but you thought from her you’re getting further

You’ve a dream as you seek the true meaning of sincerity
You’ve a dream and you wonder if it is only another responsibility
It can’t be destiny when you desire a meaningful life
Living all you can to strive

You develop your own greatest fear
Because the understanding you desire
Often lead to misperception
You may want to SCREAM in agitation

Who will hear?
Even if they do, for you how many will be here?
Are you done shouting?
They say, are you boasting?

Walking by the roadside
Which path now should you abide?
How do you decide when you your mind knows no black or white?


Yours Truly
Izuddin

P.S: This poem is not a way to offend anyone, neither does it refers to anyone at all

Justice

Peace be upon all

I shall today continue in a few lines of Attar's book (The Conference of the Birds). As said the title, they are regarding justice. Beforehand, allow me to mention a few words.

Love is indescribable
Its flow dwells in man’s flesh
A Love for a subject
Whether Something or Someone
He finds a new strength
Yearn to protect his Beloved
Dangerous trials placed before him

Justice aids him
In battle but not for his rights
But for others he stands and fights

This answers if we should create our own laws to prove our superiority over others. This world has no place for "I", for only God has such rightful proclamation; it isn't solely "You" but "Me" too.

When "you" and "I" meet, it is "WE" shall it be.

A bird questions the hoopoe about justice and loyalty

Another bird said: ‘What are loyalty
And justice, put beside such majesty?
God gave me boundless loyalty and I’ve
Not been unjust to any man alive –
What is the ghostly rank of those who own
Such qualities, before our sovereign’s throne?

The hoopoe answers him

The hoopoe said: ‘Salvation’s Lord is just,
And justice raises man above the dust;
To live with justice in your heart exceeds
A lifetime’s earnest prayer and pious deeds;
And tales of lavish generosity
Are less than one just act done secretly
(Though justice given in a public place
Suggests deceit beneath the smiling face).
The just man does not argue for his rights;
It is for others that he stands and fights.

I must admit how much I love the last two lines. The just DOES NOT argue for his rights; it is FOR OTHERS that he stands and fights.


Yours Truly
Iz


Man's toughest battle is to constantly remind himself what he should do, not allowing any distraction by norms (portraying negativity) and doubts

The Conference of the Birds

Peace be upon all

It has been a while I’ve not updated my blog (not to mention fulfilling my promise). It is because my laptop broke down (and it’s still currently under maintenance). As promised, I shall now share few poems extracted by the book titled The Conference of the Birds. Before that, allow me to give a brief summary of the book –but be warned!

If it is possible, I would to do this out of sincerity. I remember on the night I wrote my previous post, I had a great night. No, no parties or whatsoever I have. However, it was rather blissful whereby I was given a chance for an opportunity. I joined a friend in his business, willing to overcome the rejection of others.

But as the saying goes, people change through time (I don’t know this comes from). I’m losing my optimism (little is spared for my Final Year Project). Plenty drown and eaten by piranhas… all as a result of crestfallen when someone’s world is locked with ONLY selected people.

I’m doing this to fulfill my promise… even if I do not have readers passing by here

Anyway, let us proceed with the brief synopsis;

Written by Farid Ud-Din Attar, The Conference of the Birds is probably a book consisting of poetries as dialogues and narratives throughout the book without chapters. It is with regards of birds of the world gathered in a conference as they hear the Hoopoe’s speech in seeking their ideal king, the Simorgh bird. Through the journey, the Hoopoe clarifies the doubts and calms the troubles and fears of the birds as they seek for the king.

It is not the latter they would find, for as like other narratives, obstacles and adversities are such that convey a message to the readers with regards of each inner-self and the causes and effects which rendered in to deep downfall. Below is an example where a man, shrouded in doubts in choosing (materialism or spirituality);

An indecisive bird complains

Another bird declared: ‘As you can see,
I lack the organs of virility;
Each moment I prefer a different tree –
I’m drunk, devout, the world’s, then (briefly) His;
Caught between “No, it isn’t”, “Yes, it is”.
The flesh will send me drinking, then I’ll find
The Praise of God awakening in my mind;
What should I do between these two extremes,

Imprisoned by conflicting needs and dreams?’

And the hoopoe answers him

The hoopoe said: ‘This troubles everyone;
What man is truly single-minded? None!
If all of us could boast a spotless mind,
Why should prophets mingle with mankind?
If it is love which prompts your fervent prayers,
A hundred kindnesses will calm your cares.
Life is an obstinate young colt – until
He’s broken in by your restraining will
He knows no peace; but you are indolent,
Stretched out beside the oven, warm, content.
Tears temper hearts; but living well’s a rust
That inch by inch reduces them to dust –
You’re just a eunuch pampering his needs;
Your Self’s grown gross, a dog that sleeps and feeds.

That’s all for tonight, folks
I truly hope I’ve fulfilled my promise
Ever since my laptop breaks down, I’ve loads to share
After all those events I had prior today,
This blog is yet to be considered for termination

How could a man guides others…
When even he needs guidance?

I’ve not forgotten the reason why I create this blog
Check the very first post of this blog if you wish for the answer

Yours Truly, and forgive me

Izuddin

P.S: A seed of infatuation is similitude to a spark on a wood. If left unattended or mended, it “blossoms” and perish the wood into ashes

I had once love a girl for two years; if this infatuation is unstoppable, love may soon be my illness

The Self; our Dog, our Darkness

Peace be upon all

It’s time for a change. As a matter of fact, I’m still struggling in the battle of my Self, the untamed dog which yearns for attention. Its lure seeks sympathy as its anguish cries of pain and lack of needs calls the Heart by its side.

At the same time, the Self is as good as having branches of goals sprouting from the Tree of Desires; man yearns for this and that and hence he loses focus. At a time, he seeks for his materialistic needs (and wants) while at another time, he yearns for spiritual guidance. Unfortunately, the success and glory possessed by others render him into materialism wants. Fortunately, by the Grace and Love of Almighty God, He calls His poor slave for repentance and increase his spiritual needs.

The Heart is weak without a tinge of gratitude and submission to beyond worldly possessions

Patience is achievable through Acceptance

Spoiler: I will soon be sharing a couple of poems written by Farid Ud-Din Attar in his book The Conference of the Birds very soon... Stay put; or never


Everyday of your life is a page of your history
-Arabic Proverb

Death-day Party

Peace be upon all

I’ve a bad news for everyone… or maybe a good one depending how you’re going to swallow the following news. As usual, I am always “borrowing” excerpts from yahoo.com.sg –the people there deserve all the credits for their hard works in making research thoroughly.

Ok, allow me to proceed with the bad (or good) news; WE’RE GOING TO DIE! WOO HOO!

I know I am being sarcastic, I know, I know. It’s alright if any of you are angry with me –it’s humans’ nature, isn’t it? Or have you forgotten it is such emotion that rushes foolish men to hatred and enmity? Or is Izuddin here speaking “yeah, yeah… He’s always like that… Blah… Blah… Blah…”?

Let’s puncture an emotional fatal hole in your hearts; have you solved all your personal problems yet? If you haven’t, how do you expect for the best of this world? You can’t save a damn soul when yours is not even checked for a diagnosis yet!

Don’t get what I mean?

HERE IT GOES! It is beased on an article which can be found here, http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090127/tts-us-warming-environment-climate-972e412.html

Global warming 'irreversible' for next 1000 years: study

WASHINGTON (AFP) - - Climate change is "largely irreversible" for the next 1,000 years even if carbon dioxide (CO2) emissions could be abruptly halted, according to a new study led by the US National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration (NOAA).

The study's authors said there was "no going back" after the report showed that changes in surface temperature, rainfall and sea level are "largely irreversible for more than 1,000 years after CO2 emissions are completely stopped."

NOAA senior scientist Susan Solomon said the study, published in this week's Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences journal, showed that current human choices on carbon dioxide emissions are set to "irreversibly change the planet."

Researchers examined the consequences of CO2 building up beyond present-day concentrations of 385 parts per million, and then completely stopping emissions after the peak. Before the industrial age CO2 in Earth's atmosphere amounted to only 280 parts per million.

The study found that CO2 levels are irreversibly impacting climate change, which will contribute to global sea level rise and rainfall changes in certain regions.
The authors emphasized that increases in CO2 that occur from 2000 to 2100 are set to "lock in" a sea level rise over the next 1,000 years.

Rising sea levels would cause "irreversible commitments to future changes in the geography of the Earth, since many coastal and island features would ultimately become submerged," the study said.

Decreases in rainfall that last for centuries can be expected to have a range of impacts, said the authors. Regional impacts include -- but are not limited to -- decreased human water supplies, increased fire frequency, ecosystem change and expanded deserts.

AFP - Wednesday, January 28


Are you done reading? Aye, aye, we’re all going to die. Anyway, the world’s already coming to a brutal end with wars, poverties and intangible destructions of humans’ inner-self (e.g. greed, enmity, hatred, materialism) all started by us.

Among you are those complained “histories are boring”, “I hate reading books”, “going to school is tedious big time”, “just let the authority do the work for us” and plenty of all other excuses you all gave so that you can sit back and relax as you grab a fistful popcorns and swallow them whole in cinemas. So, where goes all the credits to the scientists and teachers who have been endlessly teaching us so that they could impart their knowledge upon us?

Now the scientists realize we’re out of oxygen with all the carbon dioxide coming and knocking in all nations’ doors. Won’t you feel regret for not having interest in gaining knowledge so as to create a better future of this world? Shouldn’t we do something, at least? It’s time to go back to school and our brains wet instead of dry because of our ignorance and arrogance.

Am I being too straightforward? Just say that I’m rude, it’s alright. Even philosophers were to give you poems for you to grasp a better understanding of the world, among you are those who will reject such parables. It’s your fault… our faults!


Even as I said so, I'll try to change, Insya'Allah
Pray for me, please

Nameless Year

Peace be upon all


It is the first day of New Year
Something has to be done here

No celebration
No enjoyment

There is no difference in yesterday…
…and today

The same goes for tomorrow…
….even as time flow

This time has created a new battle
For all our minds & bodies to struggle

Darkness in the heart must be sought
Soon it has to be fought

If we do not overcome the darkness within us
How could we then face the enemy?

Abraham… The Patriarch of the Three
Only One stands
Solve the riddle

Antichrist is coming...

Find the Answer Together

Peace be upon all

I concede I am not the only who questions the purpose of my existence, for there are many others too who ponder why they are in this world

Our beliefs are our guidance

My beliefs derive from religion… I could not forsake religion because it is never possible for a world to exist on its own… It takes an occurrence to form a cycle of nature

And undeniably, even a cycle of nature too can be defeated… If it has been nature which renders the sun to rise from the east and sets in the west daily, would it not be interesting to ask ourselves; “Who creates nature?”

Who creates the universe? Who create the planets which circumambulate the sun? We call such phenomenon as “natural”… But the problem is… who creates such a perfect solar system?

Big Bang Theory cannot take place without “something” to happen… So, how did that “something” cause changes?

That is why… I believe the existence of…

…God

It is time for whosoever who reads this post to ponder about your life… What have we done in the days before ever since the day we were born? How sure are we that the choices we make are the right ones?

Even when one takes a road, sooner he will find thousands of roads at both ends… Whichever path you take, are you sure you are making most correct path in your life?
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In the Name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

Praise be to God, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the words

The Most Gracious, Most Merciful

The Master of the Day of Judgment

Only You whom we worship and Your aid we seek

Guide us to the right path

The path of those on whom You have bestowed Your grace, not of those who have earned Your anger, nor of those who go astray

Qur’an, The Opening