I’m just going to keep things short.
All this while, I’ve been patient and do my very best in restraining myself from hating anyone. It’s not easy to be forgiving, not to mention remain close on those whom you dislike most just because you want to create a love between you and him when there is a burning hatred in the inside you.
I don’t really want to complain about my life –but it seems like everyone’s having a fun in poking me with a needle in the heart! I would enjoy the tickle on my stomach but a piercing needle through my heart? If you ask me, I would be glad to spend a period of my life cursing and damning those who wrong upon me by praying to Him.
But that doesn’t sound right –since when has Islam taught Muslims to hate others?
Yeah –I don’t want to moan about the obstacles I’ve got to overcome owing the fact that there are those who suffer worst than I do. But is it fair of me not being angry on those who did wrong to me? For God’s sake, I’m a human and don’t let me run out of patience –don’t me curse and damn those wrongdoers out there! God is watching, really!
I can’t stand it anymore… Being betrayed, being accused, and being out of place with the smug everyone’s wearing –how I hate the arrogance of human beings especially when they spare no thoughts of those inferior that them as well as not being grateful of what they have; I am not exception.
You may have come across people who claim that they love others –I dare you laugh if you come across such people who do so in their blogs. But at the end of the day, only Allah knows how sincere their hearts are.
But there’s no reason why the world should betray me that I feel I’m restrained from having a bright future –and the source is always the humans. And I’m not surprised since men have proven themselves arrogant and ignorant through history –what’s with the slaying of righteous people such as the prophets and changed their teachings for the greed of mankind’s own gain?
I’m stressed up… I never told anyone about all the things I’ve got to face saved a few. But it hurts me deeply that patience takes a cloth to wipe the oozing blood of the heart, which I’m sounding it’s almost impossible.
Please… don’t accuse me of such things… Don’t lie to me; it’s everyone’s honesty that I want. Don’t have to call me egoistic because no matter how much I try to hide the things about myself, there are portions that are left bared and if I’ve made or lead you to have a certain perception of me, I won’t blame you. If that’s what you see in me, I won’t lie because I won’t deny I’m a human as well.
I, like everybody else, have weaknesses and the saddest part is; no man recognises his strength and weakness. We all live in a world fraught of lies.
I’ve been betrayed… I’ve been accused with no one to understand me. I feel as though I’m out of place when friends whom I trust and used to share my problem have their own cliques to share their happiness. I’m always the one without a slice of their cake.
If you understand me, it’s not your attention that I need. I just hope nobody would ever accuse or mistreat me. All I want is to love people; not curse and damn them through supplications to God. Please… I don’t want to do all those stuffs. I’m a human being and you know better that human’s patience has its limitations.
I don’t want to complain… My tears are for no one but myself… You all see me alright exteriorly.
Have you ever thought of the soul beneath the flesh?
I’m always here… Not everybody else does the same…
So others may
You may contact me if you ever need a listening ear, for I’ll be one
[This post is generally for everyone, no specific person is targeted]
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