A True Achilles Heel

Peace

It's been a while since I updated this blog. I thought of no longer blogging about personal stuffs so I decided to shut up for a while, planning in my mind about creating other blogs as portfolios of my works.

But I guess tonight would be different. Because I have committed sins and misdeeds (please take those bolded words generally -I'm ashamed of what I've done), I think I need help... Just a simply favour; no loaning of money or bashing up anyone needed. Pray... yes, literally...


A True Achilles Heel

I tried my best to be different
Fighting hard from any influence
I just need a free mind
Full of conscience
Not what that have been planted in me
But what I must see, observe and learn in reality

I am the slave of my desires
Lusts flow my every vein like wildfires
Every single day
There isn’t a single moment which I am not locked away
All due to what I have seen
All due to where I am living in

A place where lewdness obscures me every single day
A place where we are brought up in a wrong way
Due to this, myself is a threat to my existence
Endangering too those whom I truly concern
Hurting their feelings and making them insecure
To the moment that this agony has no cure

I am an everyman
A man making up among men
An individual among collectivism
Yet stands out in individualism
But myself is not what I should only care about
This battle is only portion of what my life is about

There are things to be seen
People to be met in whatever condition they live in
O Reader(s), should you read this poem
And understand it and its rhythm
Please to supplicate to God for me
That my pain will be healed for eternity

(O Beloved, should you come here too
Know and understand about my love for you
I struggle hard for this love to be pure and not lustful
Like some desperate fool
Loving you to be with you for God
Even though you have someone truly pure lingering in your thought)